New-ness

Okies. So here I am rereading again (not that it takes long to read the ten or so blogs I've posted) and I've decided that my first step could be asking my friends to help me advertise my blogs. perhaps that would work. I don't know really. Eh. I have a friend that I would really like it if he read some of my stuff, but unfortunately he would probably just see it as a waste of time and dismiss it completely. I happen to regard him with the utmost esteem. I really wish he would just be a little nicer to me... Jeez I'm getting totally depressed/depressing. I should stop that. I don't know. Maybe I should find someone else that I can esteem as highly because of his experience and intelligence that happens to be a better person. I don't think it's possible. Eh. You know, I was thinking that maybe it really is true that women love to suffer. Men can treat them like the worst piece of crap on the sidewalk and yet they still come back for more. I find that I'm guilty of the same thing, unfortunately. I would tell myself I will never ever let that happen to me but it happened and I can't convince myself to give up. Blah. Well. I noticed the honesty and truth behind the saying that there's a fine line between love and hate. That one person that you've hated for the longest time is the one you will probably end up with and live at least content or resigned. As for all of those other relationships supposedly based on love? Ha what a joke. Just look at all those divorces of those who married ones they thought they loved forever before. Do they look happy now? Nope. Not gonna happen. Jeez.